Point Six

I regret saying sorry in my last post. All that I know is that I shouldn't blame your friends. Instead of saying sorry to you, I take bck my words. I want to say sorry to your friends, not you.

"Now I don't blame your friends. No wonder you tell me not to tell anyone the reason we broke up cause you were lying. With this kind of attitude, I'm not surprise that most of your friends think that you're a Minah. I thought they were telling me nonsensical stuffs, but ts true. You are a Minah." (Facebook Wan Shazwan)

All that I know is that girls like you should take a look at yourself in the mirror. Reflect cause I've learned my lesson and I don't want you to regret in the end. I got nothing else to do with you accept this, "Sorry I don't entertain Minah's"

Wan Shazwan

SHMILY

I feel like ripping your heart out and say stop!

Good Morning!
I'm up so early while still rotting at home cause school starts at 2 today. So update my blog with one good post should make it.

For my life, everything is turning back to normal. Getting my life back onto the route. I didn't meant to hurt her with all the words I wrote at my blog and Facebook but I have to keep it straight. But whatever it is, I'm sorry alright. Still Friends.

I messaged Juliet and Ben 10 freak last night.
Juliet just came back from make up class with her Kakak Ipar. So her face still full of make up. Planning to meet her soon, but not sure when. And don't even think of picking up that habit okay Juliet? You want to die, you do ah! You see Shazwan kill you! :P

For Ben 10 Freak, I saw her video at Facebook. Cute or what sia. Long time never message her so last night message her and all till I myself sleep. She like super hyper lor. Haha Never mind. At least better than being moody right?

In the mean time, I'm still waiting for the reshuffling for the posting cause I'm suppose to go to Temasek but its too far and I can't cope traveling that far. So HQ is deciding to change everything back. But I'm sure I'm not going back. Haha

Now talking to Cheryl online. Very hyper sia the topic! Hahaha Good luck for your exam Cheryl! Must pass hor. Talked to her about postings and all. Haha At least got someone to talk about the topic. Oh ya yesterday I met Nasrul to pass the thumb drive at Yishun MRT. Manage to catch up on certain things like his new unit. Haha He got Benjamin! Haha

Erm, I don't feel like going to school sia
2 hours of theory my brain can die! :P

shazwan : ))

SHMILY

My weekend and some boring pictures @ Berlin Wall in Singapore :)

peace out!
shazwan

SHMILY

I just read my one of my cadets blog (Siti) and I'm really touched by what she wrote. It just left me speechless. I am so proud that I was from Evergreen and I manage to lead you through the years. Thank you Siti Nurul Amirul. You made me proud.

SHMILY

Left me cause her friends didn't like seeing her with me. "Shazwan, don't tell anyone why we broke up". Sorry I have to do it. Sometimes, I have to be selfish due to your selfish decision.

SHMILY

SINGLE~~Attached~~

SHMILY

This one is for you my dear

I admit that it was my mistake to assume about everything. I should have asked you first before saying all those things. You had been wonderful and never ever I regret being with a girl like you. I just miss the times we had been meeting each other everyday. But now, our schedule just don't fit the time.Therefore I think we need to spend more time together and have more lovely talk and I hope that we can let it all out. Once again, I'm sorry

with lots of love,
shazwan

SHMILY

I'm Back. .

I'm back from a long weekend overseas.
Very tired. Very Tired. Very Tired.
Was with my cousins in JB for BBQ.
Wash here, wash there eat here eat there.
Kecoh!
Then we went to Pontian to go to my
Uncles fruit farm. I didn't know he owns one.
We ate by the beach and its so. . Relaxing.

Then went back to Singapore.
Mai came to to use the gym and went swimming! Haha awesome!
Enjoyed the weekend but well, ~~still miss my girlfriend.~~

" I don't know why but I think she is fading away from me. She is in love with another guy. Read her blog and she is like totally into him. She goes tuition and the guy is new there. So she is going gugugaga over him. How? Why? Am I being cheated or is this going to happen to me again and again all the time? I think I have to rest this case or should I just jump into conclusion? Shazwan, think properly. "

but still
i love her

shazwan

SHMILY

The stars lean down to kiss you
And i lie awake and miss you
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere
'cause i'll doze off safe and soundly
But i'll miss your arms around me
I'd send a postcard to you dear
'cause i wish you were here

I'll watch the night turn light blue
But it's not the same without you
Because it takes two to whisper quietly
The silence isn't so bad
Till i look at my hands and feel sad
'cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly

I'll find repose in new ways
Though i haven't slept in two days
'cause cold nostalgia chills me to the bone
But drenched in vanilla twilight
I'll sit on the front porch all night
Waist-deep in thought because when i think of you
I don't feel so alone

I don't feel so alone
I don't feel so alone

As many times as i blink
I'll think of you tonight
I'll think of you tonight

When violet eyes get brighter
And heavy wings grow lighter
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again
And i'll forget the world that i knew
But i swear i won't forget you
Oh if my voice could reach back through the past

The song is dedicated to my beloved girlfriend. Its the second song on my playlist:
Vanilla Twilight

L O V E
Shazwan

SHMILY

I don't know why but I think I have doubts about something but I'm not sure what. I just have the feeling. It just suddenly came to me hitting hard thinking about it. I wasn't really feeling well today but I tried to be strong. I didn't even tell my girl about it and I'm feeling guilty. I think I'm going to tell her tomorrow morning. I fetching her and sending her to school. Early sia I wake up. 6:52am.

shazwan: B, tomorrow you want me fetch you what time?
(silence. . . . .)
shazwan: 6:52 am????
(laughter's*)
syiqin: 6:52 am you go out or reach here?
shazwan: I reach there lah! Normal standard syiqin time what?! :)
(more laughter's*)

JUST RANDOM!

Anyway, here are some of the things I did for the last three days.
FRIDAY: Went for Movies (Santau) @ Causeway Point with beloved girlfriend and her lil brother. Then headed for CLT General Meeting @ HTA till 9pm.

This is not the actual picture. Sorry.
SATURDAY: Woke up early and headed to Changi Exhibition Center for Singapore Airshow 2010. Damn super hot! That's why its called "too hot to miss". The sun was really working me out. Haha

SUNDAY: Went to Singapore Zoo. Nothing special. Just another random trip to Zoo with family and my cousins. Another Hot day, again!

I don't know what else to update. Oh yar, wait. Got this guy bastard sia. Go spam my girlfriends tag board and talk nonsense sia. "If I find you, I will kill you." , "Good luck!" (taken from the movie "Taken")
haha

alright take everyone.
L O V E
Shazwan

Labels: love girlfriend alot

SHMILY

People who can't take it or have a problem with reading my blog, I advice you to stop reading and don't ever read again.

What is the real actual meaning of personal blog?

Its where you write something you like to keep it and years later, you can read it feeling happy with what you write. I really don't understand people who can't stand reading my blog. I'm not going to mention names cause I know I would get myself into trouble. Let me explain again, the reason why a person blog is to write about his/her personal life and nothing that it will do to hurt someone or somebody. I write in my blog cause its the only place where you can let out your true feelings instead of keeping it down inside. You should know who you are right?

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So I'm done.
shazwan

*REMEMBER. THIS IS MY BLOG AND I CAN POST OR WRITE ANYTHING I WANT CAUSE ITS MY PERSONAL LIFE.

SHMILY

New updates*

Me in Sec 3 as a NCDCC Cadet
How did being a CLT in NCDCC change your life?

I always wanted to take the lead and serve a unit since I graduated and now, I am. I'm a CLT posted to Evergreen Secondary School. Being a CLT is not only teaching and scolding cadets. Its about how you learn to respect. I made a lot of mistakes through being a CLT in NCDCC but I learn and change slowly with better perspectives ahead of me. The chances of being a CLT in Singapore is very small. You have to work hard or even work harder than hard to strive.

The other thing I like to mention is making another CLT your friend or even best friend. I made a few friends but sad to say, friends do fight or even backstab someone from the back. But I must learn how to move on and learn to change myself.

At the same time, I would like to apologise to all my CLT friends if I had ever made any mistakes. I know I made a lot of mistakes and I wish that I can turn back time and be a better person. I wish that all of this will be resolved and I hope that we can all be friends.

I wish that all CLT's from all batches can work and trust each other and work with wisdom and full of integrity. I hope that they won't fight or even go around bringing a person's name down. By achieving this, NCDCC CLT are going to have a very meaningful year ahead and for the future times to come.

Some people I want to say THANK YOU!

Md Syahir B Agus & Chow Jin Hui(4th Batch))CLT Evergreen)
I had been with you guys since 2005 and I always didn't have the chance to say this. Thanks for being by my side to guide the unit together with me. Working together with you guys had been a very meaningful part of my life. I hope in 2010, we can achieve what we are striving for and to work together as one. I'm also glad to still have you with me and I'm grateful for that. Looking forward to our camp in March :)

Md Aidil Zainal & Poh Mei Ying (5th Batch)(Non-posted yet)
Thanks for the very strong support you two gave to Evergreen and thank you so much for helping all the way. I hope me and the rest of the CLT's are able to guide you through your life in NCDCC as a CLT. You guys rock!

Suhairi Roslan (3rd Batch)(CLT Admiralty)
I know some people are trying to stop me or even the rest to talk to you, but no matter what happen, I still respect the talents that you have in making a cadet change and to be able to lead with great respect. Although we face lots of challenges, we still smile at the end of the day or even laugh at each other for no reasons. That's what I call real friends. No fighting! Peace out Bro!

Nasrul Shafiq (4th Batch) (CLT Beatty)
The friend that guided me through. He was the one who helped me alot. I feel so honoured and thankful that he was my partner for NDP 2009 although I was there only for a short period. But the support he gave me was so great. Its like not being friends, we were already like siblings. Wait for each other, serve each other food, share the laughter's and the best, not being shy to take pictures. Nasrull used to be shy of taking real pictures in unexpected place but soon after that, I teached him how to be evil. Evil in a good way I can say. I thought him that we only had one chance to take the picture or else, we won't get it. So that's where Nasrul took the gun and shot the bird down. B ut sad to say, friends do fight but everything was fine after the Brunei Trip.

Farah Muslihah Ali (5th Batch) (Non-posted yet)
The crazy but smart supergirl. This sugar rush girl had always been there especially when I had problems with my relationship and at the same time she accompanied me when I was admitted in the hospital due to H1N1. The 8 days I'm in the hospital, she never fail to ask how I'm feeling and how I am coping with everything. She never fail to make me smile everytime I talk to her on the phone or even webcaming with her. Her cheerfulness and craziness make me feel so happy. The first time I met her was at NCDCC BBQ at East Coast Park. She was busy with her homework so I decided to doodle on her foolscap. I still remember her adoring my ugly hadwriting. Then we start to get to know each other better during Adventure Finale. I was really a big idiot to even forget her. She offered me sweets at the jetty. Then NCDCC day, meet again and such. Proud of her especially getting to know that she is becoming a CLT. She is a very respectful person and she never fails to do well in everything that she do. I'm very thankful to have a friend like her cause she is the one that gave the fullest support in everything I do and that's why I call her my SUPERGIRL!

Fadzlun Adziman (4th Batch) (Boon Lay Secondary School)
"How do you describe Fadzlun??" I answered: Funny but serious but the best!
I really started to know him during the Brunei trip and we were all the way guiding each other and giving supports especially the jungle tracking. We were laughing and laughing cause Fadzlun never stop making us laugh and I love the way he give his support but at the same time.... I don't know, JUST TOO CRAZY!

Nur Lina aka Kak Ros & Nurul Huda aka mm-mm(3rd Batch)
They had been like my sister during the trip and we learn to help each other. I think, without them, I wouldn't be enjoying the trip. The first time I really had the chance to work with them was during Fire Fighting Course. Had lots of fun and I'm surprised that Huda is much more stronger than me. Well, you can't judge the book by its cover right? So yeah. For Lina, she was our head chef during the overnight at the campsite. Made for us Milo, corned beef and .. too many lah kak ros!

Maybe, its till here first. Will write again soon!
Take care everyone!

CLT Shazwan
:)

SHMILY

First photo of us on blog!

"Falling in love with you is the best thing that could happen in my life. I feel grateful and thankful that you had been there for me and I just want you to know that, I love you."
shazwan<3

SHMILY