After being hospitalised for four days, I returned home alone. My parents are working so I had to rely on public transport. In the bus, I sat at the end thinking where my love is. In my mind, I just thought to myself that's she is busy with her school and therefore she didn't even know that I am hospitalised. I reached home and cook myself some porridge. The phone rang. It was my lover. I asked her where she was and she say she is in school. I was wondering what was she doing in school at 8pm in school. I didn't care to ask cause I really miss talking to her. She say, she won't be meeting me as she will be busy with somethings. When I ask what was it about, she just answer,"I don't know". Then she say she can't talk to me, she had to go. I said goodbye ending the call with the three words; I love you. She just said;okay, back.
I decided to visit her blog and saw her post. She say she was meeting someone in her blog the next day. The next day, I waited for her in front of her school with a rose in my hand. I was hoping that she will come out and meet me with a smile on her face. I waited for 2 hours flat and I saw her, with another guy. Holding hands happily walking to the bus stop. I decided to follow them and see where and what were they up to. They walked to this quiet place where no humans are visible. They started kissing and hugging each other. My heart just stop beating and I just can't stand the scene. I went home and just kept quiet.
I called her to ask where was she just now after school. She said," I had remedial". She lied. I ask her again, who was she with,"no one". Are you sure? Yes. Do you still love me? I don't know. My heart just tell myself that I am being cheated. I gave her all the love she wants and now she do this to me. Am I a bad boy friend? I just sat and cried. Cried so hard that i can't think. I'm lost.
Muhammad Shazwan Bin Sapuwan
Evergreen Secondary School
4 Caring 2008
SHMILY
