;;;;;;Maybe I shouldn't have let you go. One word, regret. I miss you vmuch man! /Not referring to Shazwan though.(copied from adlin's blog)
ok let me explain.
firstly,i msged adlin goodmorning.
no reply.
so i msged again in the afternoon asking wether she is sleeping..
she say duh!
so..i just ignored and just try not to think of her.
then ard 3 i msged her..and asked her wether she still sleeping,
she say no,
she at hougang mall..
asked her few questions.
then she accidntaly msged me a wrong msged.
saying she wanted double choc.
iu thought she was msging me..
but noe..
she was msging someone else.
she say dont ask who.
then i like say, i just wanna know..
then she msged me
kaypoh!
ouhk...
i felt like one dumb bf just now.
then nvm..i return home after a tired day waiting for her msgs.
read her blog and this was what i found in her blog:
;;;;;;Maybe I shouldn't have let you go. One word, regret. I miss you vmuch man! /Not referring to Shazwan though.
that was for today's post.
dont you guys know how sad i feel reading this.
after all the forever and always,
she is cheating behind my back.
i never ever thought of doing things like that to her but this
is what i get in return.
seriously arh.
whats wrong with myself till she have to do all this to me..
nak ckp tak syg,
hari-hari msg her i ove you and all that sweet msgs...
and this is what i get in return.hais..
and one thing, after that,
my name disappear from her blog(link)..
what did i do wrong.
seriously, i reallly need help..
if i was mean, i could just have left her and be with someone else but i knoe i love her
and i have to be patient.
thought she changed but NO!
it started back again and it didnt even last a week.
i really feel disapointed.
i feel like shouting and letting it all go.
if i was really impatient ,i would just bastard her or even ask for a break
like 3 mths ago...
but my heart say's its bad.
i really cant believe that she is cheating on me.
i am really-really disapointed.
where did i go wrong.
i feel that im just being used and she only need me when she feels like it.
i really dont know what to say.
after all my effort..
my time..
my $$..
my love passed to her..
this is what i get.
i dont know who talk to know.
im just fading away.
i still love her..
and i always do..
but i just dont know why..
care to explain syg??
shazwan.
NILDAEVOLNAWZAHS
SHMILY
